Archive | October, 2013

On a more positive note…

30 Oct

Take a look at that smile!


I seriously don’t know how she got to be such a big girl. Seems like just yesterday I was grunting on the edge of my bed and cursing the world 🙂

She’s pretty much the happiest baby in existence. Right now, she’s snuggled up next to me snoring away…she caught big brother’s cold so she won’t leave my side. Even through the snots and the coughing she is laughing and playing. My little miracle baby.


PSA time

30 Oct

We’re going to have some serious talk before I get to the fun baby stuff.

I abandoned the blog (again), but I had my reasons. I am dealing with post partum depression. I’m saying it. I can do that now. It was a long time to accepting it, but I am. I bottomed out and got help and I’m working so hard. I know no one reads this, but on the off chance that another mom stumbles upon this and is reluctant to get help, let me just say this:

Its not your fault. You are a good mom. There is nothing to be ashamed of.

As mothers, we beat ourselves up over every little thing so its no wonder that when you start to feel not in control or those baby blues sink into something more, we panic and then blame ourselves even more. Please don’t. Every new mom has to deal with a slew of hormones that can go off the wall. I’ll admit it, I was embarrassed. I pride myself on being a totally involved mom and my family is my life…so when I could barely drag myself out of bed, when laundry piled up, when dinner wasn’t made I was just ashamed that I wasn’t taking care of things. That I wasn’t being the mom I should be. It only made the PPD symptoms worse. I was worried that if I went to a doctor, they would give me meds and make me stop breastfeeding and frankly, that was the one thing that I could do that made me feel good. I didn’t want to risk losing that.

There are options. So many options. There are meds you can take that won’t effect your milk supply. There are supplements you can take if you prefer homeopathics and herbs. Don’t underestimate the power of talking with a therapist or counselor. People love you. You’re not alone. You can do this.

I’m not perfect, but I’m ok with that. I’m not 100% better, but I’m working on it. We’ll get through it 🙂

Here are some helpful links if you or someone you know is dealing with postpartum depression or postpartum anxiety:

Postpartum Support International

Postpartum Dads                     

Postpartum Progress